I am so tired of being tired all the time. Couldn’t get in touch with the doctor today so I guess I will try next week. I think he is treating me wrong and needs to look at the situation again. I guess we will see. I have been up and down so much in the last few weeks I don’t even know where I am most of the time. I’m tired or I can’t sit still. I can’t sleep or don’t want to get out of bed. I am happy and then sad and then mad and then happy. That other person is still in my head and my feelings are the same with him. I miss him then I hate him then I want to see him then I want to kill him. This has to be figured out I just can’t do it anymore.
Kaleb got suspended for five days for fighting so I sent him to his dads that way I don’t kill him. He has actually been pretty good the last couple of days but the night of the full moon, oh my gosh. I have never noticed him do that before on a full moon but I will pay attention and see if it happens again. I found it interesting. He has to go before the SARB board and may be sent to a continuation school so I will probably enroll him in the home school program that Kelly is in and that way he can bounce between his dad’s house and mine. It’s the only way I feel like I can keep control of the situation.
I guess that’s enough. I never write when I am feeling good so it always sounds like I am complaining. I hate that. There I go again,lol.